well i have had a really nice and long summer break , but now im back :- )
Actually summer ended in the beggining of August when i started working, it feels good to be back at work, i do a good job and they are happy with me , the clients are also happy with me , they even sent in a thank you note to the local papper :-D
Always nice to receive positive feedback. Specially when the whole work place even your boss finds out and not because you tell him / her.
Well summer was wonderful. I have soo many nice memories from the great concert i went to , which i got as a present in may, to the short vacation in öland, and all the days we have spent with new and old friends and family , but most of all i have really enjoyed being with my children ( who i love to bits and it is a fantastic feeling being able to have been with for so long ) and my LOVE !! Jennie, of course, i enjoy her, her company, her smile her laughter, the way she is, her strong caracter.... her eyes , her neck, her lips, her innocent sensuality and most of all her positiveness, her energy and passion to do things .
Im tired of being MYSELF right now, or better said im tired of being who i am right now, an unhappy, insecure, low self-steemed guy, but im working and trying to come out of this ME, that it is not ME, im a happy go lucky kinda of guy, or i was , i dont know when i lost that.... but i can see it myself.... i can feel it myself, and i cant live life like this anymore , im tired and fed up of it, so from now on more positive , one day at a time, but always more positive than before.
Sometimes we all get hunged up in the bad things and see them all the time, i have to start concentrating more often on the good things.
As of monday we will have moved to another house... i hope all of us ... if Jennie will have me ;-)
But since im positive ( or at least trying to be ) i think she will take me with her :-) or at least i hope so .... :-D
Dont want this first post to be too long , so tills tomorrow , unless we are too busy moving .
I love my crazy hectic " new" life
I love my kids
i Love you
:-D
