Whatever happened to compromise?
To coming together to terms,
Whatever happened to being honest ?
And being able to show my feelings and really say how I feel ?
And be understood or at least listened to ?
Whatever happened to REAL -LIFE people being more important
than facebook people ?
When did they become more important than me ?
Whatever happened to You and Me being 1 ?
If I haven't misunderstood it
I'm just supposed to trust your word
when the last few months
your words have hurt like mad ?
I don't say to people that you have it TOO WELL !! with me
or put you down in any way,
ALWAYS think about you first,
When i do or say things
and i always ALWAYS try to give you the best of what i have
For if you are happy, I'm happy,
the problem is
some of the things that make you happy
hurt me.
So i guess it is your way or the highway ?!
When all i want is to be treated with the same respect, consideration
that i treat you with.
I take your feelings into account, they are EXTREMELY valuable to me and US as a couple
If you don't like something that involves YOU being hurt or feeling low or just think it is not appropriate me saying about you.
I don't DO IT!
I take it back if possible
I ALWAYS tend to leave YOU on a high note , when i talk about you
about how you are, what you do
both personally, intimately, physically, psychologically, you name it .
That is probably the reason why I don't like it
when you flirt with others,
when you prioritise others,
be it their time or feelings or anything else for that matter.
Because i ALWAYS have prioritised YOU !
and how you feel, or thought
"how would she feel about this? "
"How would i feel about this is she was doing it to me ? "
So YES , I tread carefully when i say things about you or do things that you may not agree with.
I don't feel like arguing , in fact I hate it , I feel ill when we do.
Are there really any arguments that are unnecessary ? Sure there is, loads, and probably most can be avoided by knowing each other well and knowing what we expect of each other, knowing where we have each other and trusting that the other half will do the right thing.
When people really close to you say things like
" what happens on the boat stays on the boat " !
I wonder ....
if it was her partner , how would she like it if others did the same thing ?
What kind of message does it send ?
You don't want to build a relationship on mistrust, neither do I ,
and even in the case that it was said as a joke,
you know that at least 70% of the jokes we do, WE DO actually mean it !
SO i ask, is that what you want to build your relationships on ?
You are supposed to be who YOU are , and still be able to be loved,
don't you feel loved ? Don't I show it enough or say it enough ?
Don't I desire you enough ? or respect you enough ? have I not done enough to show my love for you ?
nobody is asking you to change , only to show consideration, for my feelings for me as a human being, as an equal to you , as 50 % of the relationship you are in , as your partner, your lover, your friend.
Since nowadays the only who reads my blog is you , I could write anything here but I'm still careful with which words i use and how I say things.
I don't find it normal some of the things that you do or like, but that is who you are, i try to accept it and do so as long as it doesn't involve me in any bad way,
From the music you like, food, games , TV series , career choices, studies, books, friends, family,
to your dreams and spiritual believes and things you would like to achieve in life .
I respect every single one of them , and support you to the best of my abilities with them, and will continue doing so.
But when i feel a threat, something that is not right, something i wouldn't do to you and hoped you wouldn't do to me,
But do,
the i feel sad.
So maybe we need to get to know each other again, without taking US ( or what we think we know about each other )
for granted.
So here im pleading you, to tell me who you are and HOW you are, and since you know how i feel about things amybe even tell me if i will get hurt or not.
Then let me do the same to you ,
then we can decide together or separate what we need to do or what is there ( if anything ) that we can do or need to do ,
if we want to be together.
This video that follows it is dedicated to you, ( change boy for girl ) and how i feel about you.
Always have always will, as long as we are together.
